come so far

imagine climbing the side of a mountain
you've never seen the top

you know something amazing is there
very few have ever made it

you've been climbing for a few years now
the sky is a bright silvery sea

it's the first time that you've noticed
you can see the the ridge

a hand slips
the fingers on your other hand are breaking
you don't feel it.. the top is so close





don't look down

don't look down..

where do you find motivation?

I don't find it in a lot of places.. I find inspiration quite often and in a lot of things, people, places, pictures, actions, achievements.

motivation is pretty different. especially when you feel sleepy as I do right now.. which is ridiculous, I slept almost eight hours.

anyway. motivation is different. I find a lot of it in spite. when it's made clear, or expressed by someone or a group, that I need to be a certain way.. I just can't. I have to find a different way. just because I know it's there and it's possible, and because I can't stand taking directions. when I'm put in a corner, I find a way out. unboxable, as Tristan puts it :P

anyway. god I feel shitty. sooo tired. gotta do work. this is a nice koa tree:

call me naive

I feel like.. ok, if you say so, everyone's fake. fine. everyone in a spotlight is fake. do you believe that?

even if someone is "fake".. maybe for the most part, even in the spotlight, if they have to be fake, ok. they're still a person. I respect WRITERS. ok, if you can't freestyle, if you were an actor first, cool. I'm right there too. I love acting! Daysha! thank you for casting me and helping me realize that acting is awesome! I love it, I've never taken classes, it's whatever. I rap too. does that mean I can freestyle? I can battle in the streets? on radio? on video? fuck you.

I can write, and that's what I respect, that's what I care about, that's what I live. eat a dick.

one blood

every time I hear those words, some sort of violence follows. it's beautiful, magnificent irony.

we're here to love in one way or another, hm.

yes, yes, post inspired by a movie, bullocks right. green street hooligans.

I can only learn

from experience. I don't like being taught things verbally or through text :| it doesn't matter what the consequences are, I just have to try it myself if I feel so inclined.

this doesn't have to do with anything by the way, it just came to mind and I thought you should know, snoop bloggy blog.

ha, my daily, courtesy of tarot.com:

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Thursday, Dec 3rd, 2009 -- If you have strong feelings for someone special today, you could easily turn your unspoken attraction into a bit of an obsession. But being in denial about your desires isn't healthy because your hidden feelings can leak out into your external life now, putting a strain on your interactions. Transform your personal needs by focusing on a higher purpose.

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O WERD? lolllll. my interactions are strained, uh ohs.

I am transforming my needs, though. higher purpose ftw, amirite? tf is a higher purpose and where do I find it?

it's in you somewhere.

hey, you

what did you want to be when you were little?

I wanted to be the "Arrowhead water guy". I wanted to drive that truck. delivering water. the truck just looked so awesome with all that water on it. it was beautiful. I was 5. it was meant to be.

my roommate and I just created a new drink called the banana split.

50/50 milk. (half and half, hence the 'split')

99 bananas.

hazelnut liquor.

mmmmm.

seriously, what did you want to be? I think it's one of the greatest human faults to not be striving for what you want to be doing. I hate when people (and people that do this) SETTLE, and stick to a job and life that they absolutely loathe to make a decent amount of money and buy whatever they want.

man :[ I hate money

I could get myself fired from my job tomorrow if I slip. anytime in the next 4 weeks, actually. good ol' probation. what if I slip?

I'll move to hawaii for a couple months. write my business plan. and come back.

never settle :'[ it breaks my heart

we're here

the final frontier

still jammin' with RJD2

sippin' brandy alexanders..

I call 'em Curtis

'cause they're made with 50/50 milk, get it

sippin' a Curtis... noooo homo

spilling random thoughts feels nice.

when I marry, I hope I won't need a blog.

I should start writing that book, and that business plan.

backspaces aren't allowed.